I've been with my man for almost 2 months now and I still can't believe our relationship is the way it is. We get along so well, with the exception of a few minor issues, and I'm so glad that fate intervened to bring him into my life! We just spent 4 days and 2,300 miles in his big rig for work and we're still speaking and want to have sex with each other! He's on his way to Seattle and actually wanted me to go with him, even though we'd just spent 4 days together!
My last boyfriend always need some time alone after we'd been together for 2-3 days and I'm still adjusting to being with someone who Wants me around as much as possible. Speaking of the ex, I texted him last night about getting together for lunch (we haven't seen each other since Dec) and he said he wasn't sure. I figured he was concerned about my reaction, but he told me, without elaborating, that he was concerned about his reaction, not mine. Needless to say, that piqued my curiosity immensely and made me wonder what he meant. He'll probably never tell me, but I like to think he realized, after our split, how much he cares about me. That would also explain why he hasn't seemed to have any girlfriends since then...
Back to my hottie trucker, he was first to say "I love you" and my first reaction was to not believe him, but I do now and have reciprocated the sentiment. I hadn't said it in so long, it took some getting used to! I feel amazing when I'm with him and, barring any serious issues, he's going to be the father of my child within the next 12-18 months. I've wanted a baby since I was 25 and didn't get one out of my marriage. When I turned 33, I decided that if I didn't find someone I wanted to have a child with by the time I turned 34, I would use a sperm bank and become a single mother. Much to my surprise and delight, Brian said that he would father my baby.... I was floored at first and it was weird to refer to 'our baby', but now its second nature and we talk about it frequently. He'll ask me 'Are you going to melt if you come in the room and our son is asleep on my chest?' or 'Are you going to let our son suck on your nose?' I'm starting to feel like I did when I first began wanting a baby and it feels incredible! He's smart, funny, and gorgeous and I couldn't think of a better person to father my baby. He is a trucker and can be gone for weeks at a time, so I don't know how its going to work out, but he wants to be involved and I wouldn't want it any other way. If it comes down to his not being around enough, I'll refer to him as 'Uncle Brian' until my child's old enough to understand why. I know its not going to be easy and being a single mom isn't the ideal situation, but I want a baby with every fiber of my being and will deal with whatever comes to have one.
